I am freaking angry with the way how things are being handled at the other side.

I don't know why but I still feeling pissed.

Shouldn't get angry because you are also the victim.

But the thing is.. it is sell-willing victimise.

Don't understand the logic.

Not willing to accept.

Next time I shall keep quiet.

U won't understand how much I dislike him at this very moment.

If I am the OIC, I will kick him out of the company.

Too bad I am not.

Maybe I am angry because I can do something at my side but I dare not do it fearing it will affect u.

Maybe I am angry because I find myself useless for not being able to do anything for u.

All possibilities are valid.

Still feeling sore.

Plus a fact, how u deliberately not tell me about the exchange.

It might be a white lie.

But it is a start to more hidden stuff.

Something which I hate.

alot.

Sudden urge to blog

Sudden urge to blog..

Don't know. Don't think she is free to read this online novel any more.

When she told me that she is going to go back at the end of the year for new year celebration..

I felt lost...

Can't bear to let her go.. cause ever since we got together, we have never been apart for this long..

10 days..

I know.. I must not be selfish.. she is here for almost 2 years.. its time for her to go back.. see her parents... her grandparents.. her siblings.. her relatives..

I know i know..

I just.. can't bear to..

Fought this feeling..

Finally.. accepted the fact.. that she will miss me even though she is back there...

today.. she told me that her grandpa is asking if she is going back on Xmas.. even her dad wishes her to go back for xmas too..

Heart sank further..

So.. which means.. she won't be celebrating New Year with me.. she won't be celebrating 1st year, 1st month with me... now.. she won't be celebrating Xmas with me..

I felt so so demoralised after hearing that from her...

I don't have the courage to stop her from going back before xmas.. Nor i have the courage to ask her to stay with me.. f0r xmas..

YC said.. xmas to them is very important season.. it is good to let her go back and celebrate with her family...

Marissa asked me if I have any plans for xmas.

I said no.

Marissa said it is okay for her to go back then since I also have no plans too.

I dont know how to get this selfish thought out from me..

The thought of her.. not here for 3 important dates.. simply kills me.

Mood swings and swings..

Maybe its because she didnt show or find it pity that we cant celebrate together..

maybe.. it is really more meaningful to spend it with her family..

maybe.. i dunnoe...

feel myself insignificant.

smaller than a grain of sand.

All of a sudden.. I am scared of losing u, losing this relationship. DOn't ask me why. I am just scared.

Don't think ur parents are going to accept me.

I want u to be my future too.. do u noe..?

Armani Exchange

1 formal white AX long sleeve shirt - 200 plus

1 formal white-grey AX working pants - 200 plus

1 AX causal belt - 100 plus

1 AX short skirt - 200 plus

1 AX cardigan - 100-200plus

All the above will probably cost you close to 800 bucks.

I paid $144 for all of them.

Cheap? Whahaha..

actually, it should be $160. Thanks to sis, who has 10 percent off when we show her employment ID.

Saved alot!

I am a happy kid!

Finally I get to decorate my wardrobe with AX stuff.

Skirt is meant for baboyy.

Happy happy...

=)

Giddy

Super giddy today.

Think i am dying pretty soon.

Will be doing something new tomorrow.

Hahaha

Been flooded with great ideas.

Tsk tsk..

=)

Few More Days

Hehehe...

Few more days and we would be celebrating our 5th month together..

Yipee...

*In love mode on*

Dha

I love you...

=)

Blocked & Blogged

Was pretty upset when I saw that the blog which you have created for us was being removed after 2 days.

Thus, I have decided to block this address and use it for own use.

Like that you have mentioned previously.

It will be a blog for us. To record every big and small details in our lives together.

One thing for sure.

I know I made a good choice when I told you that I like you.

I love you back then.

I love you more now.